As usual Holidays where becoming an very busy social events for the Millmas, will to the house of Dean Martin for Christmas a second time or 3 event, this time I invited my sister and my niece, and every time it has been a adventure,, it was a great party – this year , full of 60s stars who were as big as Brad Pitt and Angelina Jolie in our era. After the party Rex Harrison had called our home again, but I was too busy to get to know him better. My lifestyle was modeling, partying and drinking, which took up all my time– so I guess I will never know what he wanted!
Then it was time to prepare for the Country and Western Jubilee, we I tried two sign on Jerry Lee Lewis, and David Carradine and Johnny Cass and invite same famous stars, we hope it turns out great , all this is only on few months , so we go two as many parties as we can two invite or sign every Start we can , either two perform or as an quest at the Festival.
Friends called our ranch home Sherwood Forest (I have no idea why people started calling our home that, I had another name on my library studio office: Piggy Pig Farms. I had so many animals there I started selling them! In those days, the flower children were calling the police officers “pigs,” and I love pigs so in my niece, crazy way, I thought I would glorify their name by calling my farm that, Pigs are really very intelligent animals and I don’t understand why its considered an insult.
One day, we ordered a whole piglet for New Years, and it was hanging in a cool room just before the big garage. We were going to roast the pig over an open fire by the pool. This was a New Years party, but it was only December 30 and the party was going already.
The 30th was my sister’s birthday so after a quiet dinner with my blood family, we retired to our Hacienda. We should have called it Las Vegas– what happens here stays here! Well, my dear husband disappeared in the middle of the party, and of course I did not even miss him with so many young men around me, flirting and wanting me. I did not find out until later that he was in the “pig room” with the girlfriend of Gus Savalas– I forget her name– doing what animals and people do! She was very different from me bodywise, and I think she was a nymphomaniac, so they had really lustful, promiscuous sex. As your see I think I was more open two my sexual behavior, then my husband he knew every one I had been with , but I did not suspect nor worried about him, because I thought we had no lies or secrets regarding our behavior in the parties of sexual indole, but that was not his way, which I found out later.
If the only value my book will have for anyone ( beside it entertainment), is to make the reader see how an alcoholic functions and what makes him or her that way, it will serve a purpose. It is the same with all of us, a sickness. It shows up in different forms with different people, but it is really all the same. No matter if you are white, yellow, black, or purple, it is always the same. I don’t like to generalize, but I think we are all borderline genius, idiot, artist in everything and nothing. Of course this is only my opinion, and for sure it is an unscientific one, but by the same token the doctors will confirm one thing that I mention here. Alcoholism is a disease that only a Power greater than ourselves can remove– but how, you will ask? The only way I personally found out was through Alcoholics Anonymous, where the members showed me by their example, and I did the work. After fifty years of drinking every day, God still let me live and sober up, so that today I am a writer and have a reborn life. Their things that became real instead of an dream and it is great two rediscover every minute of the life and feel not nam.
Yes, today I am still beautiful and attractive, but this time I know it because I am grateful for everything- for my friends and admirers, and especially to the men I loved and they love me their too many to remember each name , but each left I leson good or bad a lesson never the less. . Above all I am happy, and I still have a lot of love to give to the world- humanity, animals and nature. Today at last I can stop and smell the roses, even laugh at myself when it is appropriate!